All Mine

Tomorrow, daddy said mommy should clean the electric fans and wash the crib.  That is on top of mommy scrubbing the floors, disinfecting the house, killing ALL vermin in the house (our house is OK, i was just being exag), doing the groceries and the marketing (they’re different) and what have you.

Coz on Sunday, the King of the House will finally come home in all his glory. =)

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Mommy still has a lot of WBLs to finish, a gift to buy, and then mommy has to work so that her bosses won’t harass her too much next week.  Poor mommy..

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So mommy has got to sleep now coz she needs to wake up early..

Let me share with you a little something about the people who look like me (ahem):

From my previous blog (please refer to blog immediately preceding this):

1. Zhang Ziyi

From:  China

Known for:  THE geisha in Memoirs of a Geisha.

Oh, im so pretty.  I love her eyes.  “It has water..”

2. Jennifer Love Hewitt

From:  US

Known for:  I Know (and Still Know) What You Did Last Summer

When I was in college (and a few inches thinner), I really do look like her. Ask anyone who knows me back then..swear! (right, right) =P

3. Lucy Liu

From:  China (I guess..)

Known for:  Charlie’s Angels

I know I’m not that chinky-eyed, though..

4. Ziana Zain

From:  Indonesia? (I’m not really sure – please tell me)

Known for:  I think she’s a singer

Oh, I can sing too!! (so talented – that’s me!)

5. Aya Matsuura

From:  Japan

Known for:  According to wikipedia: female Japanese popular music artist and actress who was born in Himeji, Hyogo Prefecture 

She’s in wikipedia so she must be famous..

From my profile:

6. Annette Bening

From:  US

Known for:  American Beauty and the American President

A bit older..but still pretty – so, OK!

7. Katie Leung

From:  Born in Scotland but looks Chinese

Known for:  Playing Cho Chang in Harry Potter (where else?)

It was the cheeks, I think..

8. Sarah Geronimo

From:  Philippines

Known for:  singing Forever’s Not Enough and a lot of Celine Dion songs

And if..forever’s not enough for me to love you so..(sings). At least she’s getting prettier. =)  Don’t get me wrong, I really like her.

9. Camile Velasco

From:  Philippines

Known for:  The other Filipina from Hawaii to join and be a finalist in American Idol (aside from Jasmine Trias)

Again, wonderful eyes. And again, I can sing just like her..hehe. As if!

10.  Son Ye-jin

From:  Korea

Known for:  Again, according to wikipedia:  She is noted for her acting roles in the film The Classic, as well as the 2003 KBS drama Summer Scent, co starring Song Seung-hun and 2006 SBS drama Alone in Love.

I guess, GMA 7 and ABSCBN has not yet gotten hold of these Koreanovelas as I do not know them (not that I know everything they’ve shown though).

(Thanks wiki, you have been extremely helpful in doing this blog!)

See My Profile for Part 1..

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Oh, goodbye WBLs!!

Joaqui was standing (or sitting in his stroller) by the gate this afternoon seeing Mommy ride the car on her way to Manila.  Mommy kept on kissing Joaqui and was only holding her tears from falling. Mommy is going to miss Joaqui again.

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saying goodbye is becoming harder each weekend..with Joaqui growing up all too soon.  i can’t imagine how else it would be like next year when Joaqui and Mommy will be apart for months..

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but each dream has its own sacrifice. each star has its own night. tomorrow is a new morning.  and hopefully, a brighter future after the night.

a common scene runs through my mind:

a wife waiting til midnight for her husband to come.  enter husband.  wife confronts - "San ka naman nanggaling? Bakit ginagabi ka?" ("Where have you been?  Why are you late?")..yada yada..

in as much as i do not want to play the cliche wife. can’t help it. im bored all alone waiting for the husband. and so i give in to the urge and nagged. yaiks.

Note:  Please do not get me wrong.  My husband is a law student and prefers studying in a coffee shop rather than home and be lured to a "short nap" (translation: 3 hrs of sleep). 

Its just me being melodramatic. =)

And me missing my Joaqui.

And me being free (it all really boils down to the freedom and OC blog earlier) and doing nothing. Hehe.

..but there is one OC I have come to hate because it has cost me my freedom..(see immediately preceding blog)..

This week I will be free.  I will savor the moment and worry by Friday how my GT&E will look like.  For in the coming weeks, I will be back in my prison cell.  So help us, God!

Unexpectedly, this year’s anniversary has failed to lift my SGV spirit.  Despite the fact that I went ga-ga over the last few weeks looking for a formal dress in which I won’t look too fat, the preparations still overshadowed the event itself.  The preparations were much more exciting.

And I begin to wonder, why so?  Have I lost my love for the Firm whom I’ve been with since I graduated from university?  Have I lost the zest for challenge and adrenaline rush?

Was it because I didn’t get the directorship nor bagged the SyCip Award when I felt that I deserved it as much as the ones who got it? Was it because of the boss who treated me like I‘m worth nothing during the past week?  Was it because that my batchmates weren’t also as excited for the anniversary as I was? Was it because May and Francis did not attend?  Has my leaving bosses/friends’ sentiments has finally rubbed off on me?  Was it because of the looming increase by September?  Was it because I am getting impatient for next year’s exodus?  Was it because I am worrying that if I don’t leave now, there won’t be anymore opportunities to leave by next year?

I can’t surely tell, but I guess it was a bit of all these things.  I am unhappy.  It seems my reasons for staying were all dwindling down to zero.  And I am quickly downing all my accumulated sick leave credits to nil – like now.

Author’s note:  One reason why accumulated sick leaves should not be actuarially computed is because they can be used by employees like me anytime and not at a future period, such as upon retirement.

At the risk of sounding jologs (corny/cheap — whatever! I do not have a more descriptive english word), here’s a list of who i would have gone after if I were single (other than my heart ha!):

Piolo Pascual - He looks so clean and he looks like he smells good.  I am one of those in denial who refuse to believe he’s gay.  And, I do NOT (want to) believe that he’s with Rica Peralejo.  Hmph! 

What I luuvvv about him:  his eyes! his voice!

Zanjoe Marudo - he was a local model.  he models underwears too!  i have watched the celebrity edition of Pinoy Big Brother only for him.

What I luuvvv about him:  THE body, THE height, and the eyes

Julian (of "My Girl") - Korean novelas have somehow invaded the local tv and he is the other Korean guy whose looks I appreciate (Lee Dong Gun is the other one).  He recently came to the Philippines and appeared on (for goodness’ sake) Wowowee.  I instantly felt shame when one of the dancers danced suggestively in front of him. As in. I pitied him coz he didn’t seem to know what to do.  He went shy.

What I luvvv about him: His suplado-look.

Who else, who else…

I rarely talk about my dad and our relationship.  Our father-daughter relationship is very difficult to understand.  You see, my dad can be the most obnoxious person you will ever meet.  But he can also be the sweetest person in the world.  He has odd ways of showing his love.  And for this, I know he has enamored not a few.  He trusts me enough to tell me all his deep dark secrets but there are things I cannot simply open up with him without him getting nervous.

In memory of the person I admire, I love and, sometimes (or a lot of times) get in conflict with, this blog is for you.

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My sister and I would troop the 3-4 hour ride to Cabanatuan every other week (o Saturday or Sunday morning) or whenever there is an occasion just to be with him even if we would just sleep all day.  We would always go to the Pacific Mall on Sundays so he can play his Indiana Jones.  Sometimes (or most of the times) I would bring home work on these weekends.  When I was still at school, I would always be studying.  And for this, I would always get a mean look from him.  Sometimes he would just ignore me.  He is proud of my achievements, but he really, really hates it when he sees me study and work.

Papa has his weird ways of raising kids.  He is not strict about my siblings watching adult movies or reading adult magazines.  He would sometimes initiate an "envy game" with them.  He openly favors one child from the other.  But in a weird sense, all of us grew up perfectly fine.  All of us were more mature and wiser beyond our ages. 

My papa is not academically intelligent, but he is street smart.  He worked his way up.  In times of problems, he would always know what to do.  And somehow, he would always be right in the end no matter how wrong he is at the start.

When I was to leave for Australia, papa immediately booked the same flight so that I will not be alone in a foreign land.  He stayed with me for 2 weeks until I got settled.  And with this two weeks, all he did was to walk me to the office, remind me that I am not in Manila and I should not be doing my usual bouts of over time and fetch me from the office or from my client with his umbrella if it is raining.  When I come home, he has already cooked.  He gets bored and misses home.  But he patiently waited, until he is sure I am okay.

I miss my papa and the security he gives us all.  Not the material security, but a feeling that we are always safe, that nothing will go wrong as long as he is around.  He was our strength and our protector. He was not a perfect dad, but he was more than good enough.  And for as long as he is in our hearts, I know everything will be just fine..